37 w 5 d

Bitches, I got this shit handled. This week in therapy my therapist told me I should take the next week of from her. I’m good. I feel strong. I feel ready. I feel like if I still end up transferring to the hospital and not achieving a home VBAC, I won’t lose my mind. I feel like I’ve done everything I can and now all I have to do is  GET IT DONE.

Confession? I’ve had a couple of hours a day of cervical cramping, and tonight two honest to goodness back to back contractions. I think i was just tired, but… I’m hoping this means I’ll have a baby before 41w 5 days like BoC.  I know that it still could be a few weeks, but… I’m hopeful. 🙂 I’m also an emo mess, crying at everything, or wanting to kill anyone who crosses me. good times, that.

What else do I say? I keep having to remind myself that this is a DE baby. I have no doubt that eventually it’ll kick me in the ass and I’ll have to deal with whatever feelings come up, but all i know is that soon I’m going to have a baby… MY baby.  It’s a little bit cray cray.

Brandi says it all: I crossed all the lines and I broke all the rules, but baby I broke them all for you. Isn’t that how we get here? we cross every line we said we’d never cross, and we break every rule, and it’s worth every damn cent and every second of it to get to this point when we’re ready to meet our baby.

It’s a good month to be born. Let’s. Get. It. On. (tho I’m ok with waiting a couple more weeks)

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~ by zeneggs on August 3, 2012.

3 Responses to “37 w 5 d”

  1. git r dun!

  2. So much love for you! Can’t wait to meet your sweet bambino 🙂 xoxo

  3. I love this song. I am hoping for the best for you.

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